7
September
2009
The last time I’ve posted an entry here was about him- about happy days. But now, this will also be the last time I’ll rant about him. I swear to myself not to blab anything from him anymore.. This would be my last..
I thought were still okie (our status) since he gave me a ring yesterday and he even make me laugh with his silly joke only to find out this day that it’ll also be the last conve we will have. He did want me out of his life. His reason? He want me to concentrate on my studies.. Was my effort not enough to please him? If he only knew that I am opting and trying to do everything just to have a QPA of 3.3 to be an honor student only to please and make him proud of me! (kulang nalang hindi ako matulog para lang mag-aral.. un pala kulang pa. Its insufficient) And you know what while I was browsing his facebook today, I’ve found out that he’d already changed his relationship status from in relationship to single.. And you know how it feels like? It was hell! I was like… “was it his plan?.. I know he’s ready for it.. ready to loose me.”
I’ll find someone better than u! who will not just waste my love for nothing!! Im so stupid to make believe in everything that you’ve said.. so damn stupid!! Everything’s unappreciated nman pala eh.. useless~!! Now I realized that the pathetic part of being in love is that sometimes the worst person in this world could be the best person in yer own belief!! LOVE IS NOT BLIND.. IT SEES BUT IT DOESN’T MIND~!! to the point that you’ve left nothing for yerself.. not even one single pride.. I think I’ve done my part. that’s more than enough. I’ve been loyal and loved you ever since.. You were the one who initiated not me.. You were the one who make the move and surrendered. God will give me someone who deserve my love.. who deserve the real me!! No regrets.. Enough for this stupid love.. Enough for giving you the chance to make me vulnerable from pain.. Enough is enough!!
Posted under broken, experiences, stupidity
11
June
2009
We’d reached a year already just this day, yet I must admit I can’t feel the spirit of being delighted and amazed that we’ve gone this far ‘coz just this midnight we had an argument which I really hated the most. I can feel that he’s ready to let go of me- perhaps he don’t want me on his life. Is it really that? Who could precisely explain it to me why is he giving me an option against my will?? Anyone? I’ve been in a dilemma with this relationship this past few days. Things are going tough for both of us specially on his part. The reason? He’s emotionally down due to some predicament he’s currently facing. He even told me that he want himself dead to end up all the can of worms in an instant- with just a snap of a finger. Just how hard it is for me to hear him saying that. As his girl, much more as his chum, I wanted to give him a company, talk to him solemnly and discuss those matters that kept on twisting his brains back ad forth… I wanted to be his pain absorber.. My guilt’s killin me everytime I see him acting that way- wan’t to cut his life off. But how can I help him when he don’t even let me get updated on what’s going on with his life now? He wants to carry the burden of his problem by himself. With that scenario, I see myself useless- a crap which should be dumped to.
“wag mo kasi solohin yang problema mo, ano pang silbi ko bilang gf mo kung di man lang kita matulungan jhan.. di mo kasi alam ang feeling na gustong-gusto mong pagaanin loob ng mahal mo pero di mo alam panu mo sisimulan.“ *sigh in depression..
Gang, you don’t have to be somebody just to have me,keep me waitin and lovin you. As what I’ve been tellin you before, I don’t need any of yer possession - what I need is YOU! I hope to spend another hours, days, weeks, months or even another year with you if yer just willing to. You was never in my vocabulary. Until one day.. You became the only word I know. I’m desperate to patiently wait for u if you just let me even if I know that I might lose you with just a glimpse. But it’s a risk I must go through if that’s the only way to have you.
Posted under something about love
22
March
2009
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