September
2009
Happy Ending’s Not for Me
The last time I’ve posted an entry here was about him- about happy days. But now, this will also be the last time I’ll rant about him. I swear to myself not to blab anything from him anymore.. This would be my last..
I thought were still okie (our status) since he gave me a ring yesterday and he even make me laugh with his silly joke only to find out this day that it’ll also be the last conve we will have. He did want me out of his life. His reason? He want me to concentrate on my studies.. Was my effort not enough to please him? If he only knew that I am opting and trying to do everything just to have a QPA of 3.3 to be an honor student only to please and make him proud of me! (kulang nalang hindi ako matulog para lang mag-aral.. un pala kulang pa. Its insufficient) And you know what while I was browsing his facebook today, I’ve found out that he’d already changed his relationship status from in relationship to single.. And you know how it feels like? It was hell! I was like… “was it his plan?.. I know he’s ready for it.. ready to loose me.”
I’ll find someone better than u! who will not just waste my love for nothing!! Im so stupid to make believe in everything that you’ve said.. so damn stupid!! Everything’s unappreciated nman pala eh.. useless~!! Now I realized that the pathetic part of being in love is that sometimes the worst person in this world could be the best person in yer own belief!! LOVE IS NOT BLIND.. IT SEES BUT IT DOESN’T MIND~!! to the point that you’ve left nothing for yerself.. not even one single pride.. I think I’ve done my part. that’s more than enough. I’ve been loyal and loved you ever since.. You were the one who initiated not me.. You were the one who make the move and surrendered. God will give me someone who deserve my love.. who deserve the real me!! No regrets.. Enough for this stupid love.. Enough for giving you the chance to make me vulnerable from pain.. Enough is enough!!
